Coming out of Christianity
Posted: Wed Aug 05, 2020 11:15 am
I would like to first say I have read and understand much of the relevant materials on this topic in various essays on NatVan, and listened to both Dr. Pierce and Mr. Strom talk about why Christianity is incompatible with NA doctrine, and I am not seeking to make any discussion about that (compatibility/incompatibility).
Those on here who left Christendom, how did you go about it? What was the physical (family, friends, church attendance, etc.) and mental (patterns of thought, changes in behavior, difference in worldview) process of change for you? And I don't mean those who were simply nominal/culturally a part of the Christian faith, but an active and devoted member of the faith who left and now holds to cosmotheism or a similar doctrine.
I am a licensed minister with an accredited degree in biblical studies from a conservative school. And I find myself torn between two worldviews.
One the one hand is the undeniable reality of what I see around me, the death of my race and it's culture requires action to halt and reverse, a cause I am ready and willing to devote myself to.
Yet the other hand is they faith I have devoted the past 15 years of my life to, at a level far beyond 99% of those who hold to it. I have learned how to defend it from all attacks from all angles, answer most every question that challenges it, and how to preach and teach to others how to do the same.
Still despite that, I still have always had my doubts and questions; doubts and questions that when asked to teachers and elders were passed off as irrelevant, esoteric, or philosophical rather than theological, that I should focus on more fundamental and practical aspects of the faith.
These doubts and questions are what allow me to consider the possibility of error in my belief when many of my peers forge ahead through crisis of faith. Yet, the ingrained fear of eternal damnation is strong and real for me, and keeps me from wholly walking away at this time, as well as the consideration of the many apologetic to defend the faith I have memorized.
I am left camping at a crossroads, unable to make the decision. I hope that some others who have had even relatively similar experiences can pipe up and share their experiences for me to consider.
(If this should be moved to the Team House informal discussion board let me know)
Those on here who left Christendom, how did you go about it? What was the physical (family, friends, church attendance, etc.) and mental (patterns of thought, changes in behavior, difference in worldview) process of change for you? And I don't mean those who were simply nominal/culturally a part of the Christian faith, but an active and devoted member of the faith who left and now holds to cosmotheism or a similar doctrine.
I am a licensed minister with an accredited degree in biblical studies from a conservative school. And I find myself torn between two worldviews.
One the one hand is the undeniable reality of what I see around me, the death of my race and it's culture requires action to halt and reverse, a cause I am ready and willing to devote myself to.
Yet the other hand is they faith I have devoted the past 15 years of my life to, at a level far beyond 99% of those who hold to it. I have learned how to defend it from all attacks from all angles, answer most every question that challenges it, and how to preach and teach to others how to do the same.
Still despite that, I still have always had my doubts and questions; doubts and questions that when asked to teachers and elders were passed off as irrelevant, esoteric, or philosophical rather than theological, that I should focus on more fundamental and practical aspects of the faith.
These doubts and questions are what allow me to consider the possibility of error in my belief when many of my peers forge ahead through crisis of faith. Yet, the ingrained fear of eternal damnation is strong and real for me, and keeps me from wholly walking away at this time, as well as the consideration of the many apologetic to defend the faith I have memorized.
I am left camping at a crossroads, unable to make the decision. I hope that some others who have had even relatively similar experiences can pipe up and share their experiences for me to consider.
(If this should be moved to the Team House informal discussion board let me know)